Love Like Woe

Hey...so it's been a while since i posted. I'm currently at school at 7:03 am, school starts at 8 am but i get here everyday at around 6:30 am. I've been early because i take the bus to school since Yeda and her family left for the Philippines last week. So all week I've been waking up at 5 am (like when i called you) to get dressed cause i have to walk to my bus stop two blocks up. I am EXHAUSTED,I've only been to the gym once since I'm always so tired. You know i just realized you sound so different now, before you had a really high pitched voice and now it's gone a bit deeper, not manly but just different.

I have a math project on cartoon characters, i chose Pokemon <3, I have to identify the different shapes the cartoons are made out off. I've already started even though i haven't told my teacher I'm doing pokemon.

Yesterday my friend Courtney re-colored my hair since we got out of school at 12pm because of play. She curled it but its not like anyone notices anyways...

I've started writing again, and sometimes its love stories but they always start out with a girl who is suicidal and has a broken family. I'm NOT suicidal. DON'T WORRY. I'm just insecure and have very low self esteem.

I wonder why society turned out so bad. Nowadays a "PERFECT" girl is a size zero girl who always eats salads,goes to the gym, and bares more skin than a hoe. A girl has to be a certain kind of "HOT" to be noticed by guys and it bother me so much. I understand that some girls have high standards about guys too but they're not as high as the standards of guys.Why can't anyone in this realize that there's no such thing as a perfect girl or guy.

This is the reason why many girls all over the world are going for plastic surgeries, becoming anorexic or bulimic, and also becoming pregnant. Some girls in this world are a bit too desperate and for a guy to say
"I LOVE YOU" to them they instantly fall into the trap and after a while some become pregnant and think that their boyfriend will be there for them but truth is, she was just a hump and dump.

Did you know that when Jeff first asked me to be his GF i doubted him? He had just broken up with his gf a month before and i had just embarassingly told him that i like him over text. I think it was Minolee and Bea who told me that he "loves" me. At one point during vacation i chatted with Bea on IM and we came to the conclusion that i may just be a rebound girl. I cried that night and i still can't get that thought out of my head.

I'm sorry for venting so much. How are you? i should call you soon :) How's the love life? any changes? (for me, it's still the same) How's your family doing?

SMILE for your SMILE could be lighting up SOMEONE's day! XD

xoxoxox
Bea

p.s: I am also currently sick since it's freezing in the morning and i don't bundle up properly.